What is it to be a Master? I’m realizing that it is as ‘simple’ as having control over my rising emotions; the ‘event’ is outside of me and that it is not me. My reaction to anything, however, is only fully and completely up to me. The physical symptoms begin; a raise in body temperature, … More on becoming a master
There is a space inside where I’ve not ever been. At the center; irritation, it seems, agitation, some ‘not quite rightness’ dry, frozen, deep, raw; a hidden cavern, a concern for weeks, more like months, maybe even years have passed, run around, filling todo’s, occupying time and every little ‘out of place’ thing gets set … More still listening
Expression I’m realizing how important it is to express myself. It wasn’t something that I ever did. Not as a child or adolescent and even more true as an adult. I never shared what I was feeling. Partly because I was unable to explain living like a stranger on the planet, feeling like spare parts, and partly because … More Earth Survival Guide
I’m often looking for someone to be. Someone smart, someone evolved, knowing, clever, happy, light, trying to appear joyful. I want to put on an air of confidence. I try to grasp something, an idea of how I want to be perceived. What hat should I wear? What will they think of me? How do … More a/voi/dance
My husband and I went for a walk a couple of days ago. There’s a pathway that we found that takes us to a great view of the Pyrenees that we take every few days. The line of trees along the street has turned a crimson red. They are beautiful; real fall weather is in … More Out of Nowhere
I had a dream the other night. Both of my daughters were in it. I was applying some drops of medication to the upper back of my older daughter. She had a wound that required a flap to be opened and the medication to be dripped in. She moved suddenly and I spilled some from … More self love
It was when we were in the parking lot of the Intermarché when it struck me. My husband was loading the carefully chosen grocery items into the trunk of the car. I am in my prime, right now, I thought. I am at my very best It was in a sudden moment when I knew … More And what of now?
I didn’t see it before now, the things I held as real. Friendships, memories, and events that I created in my mind to make sense of my world. The dead things have brought me comfort, kept me connected, made me feel like I was a part of something. Friends kept for many years, the last … More Letting go of dead things
I’ve been following that elusive carrot for a few years now. The one dangled in front in promise of something great coming sometime in the future. Corporations, governments and even the Carrefour market here does it – collect 140 stickers and for 5 € you can get a blender! type of promotions. It’s the carrot … More the fake carrot and the fake stick
This passage in the inspiring book Women Who Run With The Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estés resonated right through me. I read the book several years ago and I have just rediscovered it and am reading it as if for the very first time. I am a different woman now than I was many years … More Happy International Women’s Day to wild wolf women …
Kathy Maloney Mathieu 